I know we did a lot things beyond our control & it
was all my fault. I feel that it is truly all not in favour of me. I know words
from me can never make you forgive me but I dont know how can we ever be
friends again. I will never forget how much we used to talk over the phone
compared to nowadays. I remember calling you in the wee hours of the night like
2-4am just so we could be on the phone to talk about Get Backers on Art
Central & you would introduce Taiwan dramas to me. You would always be the
friend whom I could depend on but ever since that day you told me the things
till now I would doubt, you were never the same. You were never as comprising,
you were never as caring. You would try to act like you know me, like you know
how to love me, but you didnt get it right. It was my fault to not give you
another chance, but how many chances have I given you? You have always been on
my mind during the whole time we never contacted. In my heart you will always be
the hairy caterpillar who uses a memory stick to remember things that I
found important(I hope you remember). I loved you, as a friend. I dont
understand whats this silence about. Deep down in my heart, I just want to
apologise.

6 more days. 6 more days. Is this really retribution for all
the wrongdoings that Ive done or we were just not meant to be? Is this a test
of tolerance or just a test to see how long I need to take before I realise that
Im driving myself 300m/s towards a wall? You are always the image I see when I
think about you. You just happen to be there! What is this? If you & I were
not meant to be, then what is this? To see how much misery I can handle &
how pathetically love-sick to be? What is this.. 6 more days for history. As the
days go on second by second, hour by hour, I always seem to be wishing that we
could be. I really understand how you feel right now. The person you want to be
with doesnt gives you the chance to. Im ever ready to sacriface anything for you
for that smile on your face. I really want to know the truth. Did your feelings
fade for me or were you angry in the first place? I just want to say, Im
sorry.

You told me once last time(I wonder if you remember)
that if I were a guy, I could be a potential boyfriend for you because I was
sensitive. Lol, how about now? Youre the friend that I can count on. Although we
dont talk as often I still hope to be the friend that you will wish to be
with, always. :P