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This rocker is turning 16 soon & being on time is what I can never achieve. :B
Boy at heart though trying
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Jane
Wednesday, January 7, 2009 @ 7:05 PM
Bz bz bum bee.

So I lied, Im online & blogging 'cos I said I would be busy this month. :B

Sigh, first few days of school got me dragging my poor feet home. I said I'll busy..& I hell yea! I freaking much am!

schoooool(2.20) -> band(6+) -> home -> homework(9+) -> sister(12+) -> sleep(6.50am)
If not,
school(2.20) -> IRP(4) -> tuition(6.30) -> home(7) -> homework(10+) -> sister(12+) -> sleep(6.50)

WHICH MAKES ME WANT TO SHOUT "I CANT HELP BUT DOZE OFF IN CLASS IF THE LESSON IS DAMN BORING!" D:<

I can't even stay in peace on Sundays because my really adorable sister idolises me so much so I have to be with her in the afternoon. I can't revise much either. It's very pressurising & taxing(physically & mentally)!

I wonder how the 2006 & 07 batch of Sec 4s did it.. >< When leadership was at it's best. Aiyoh! Stupid start-of-the-year blues! I dont like getting all nostalgic. *stupid face*

I miss my P6 days. When KaiXuan & Carmen were basketball mates. When Alan, KaChai, Jeremy, WenYuan, WeeGuan, ChunHei, WeiLiang, Sam, YuanFang, & I would call each other to ask if we were playing block catching after a few matches. When I would sneak out of the house at 5am to slack at Sam's place & play ball till night. When all I ever needed to do was play MapleStory & get screwed by my Mum when it was 1am. When all I ever wanted to wish for was to be with the person I loved. :D All the childlike satisfaction was enough for me.

Actually, all in all, my life was pretty much wasted, but I was happy! I felt happy. Really happy. :D Now, basketball is about skills on the match, no more block catching. I would never need to sneak out of the house anymore because, I can do whatever I wish! Family problems are the main cause of all my frustration. When now I can ever do is wait for a message. And I know my friends will be there for me, but they'll never understand me.

I want a friend who knows what kind of face I'll be showing when I say
something. I want that person to comfort me when I'm down & know when to
shush. To make certain sacrifaces for me, to show that Im of importance.
Because I will too. To randomly choose to go to East Coast Park on a school day
just to cycle till the butt ached! :D So we'll stay over at each other's place
when we felt like it. Well, I had this certain friend before. Guess things
change rapidly without showing.


I miss alot of things & I know I cant get them back. So, I want to live everyday like its my last, but all the responsibility & burden is thrown all over me to take. I want to live my life dangerously.

All I can say now is...
When I grow up
I wanna live my life dangerously.

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